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Oh how I love livejournal it has always comforted me when I was lonely. I don't know what I want at the moment I just that I am very lonely at the moment. I need comfort. I need a new friend. I need real love.  I need excitement.

I went to the store today which is like 30 miles from my house. I had a whole shopping cart full of groceries which took me awhile to get because I like to look around. I then waited in line for like 30 min. It was when I was in at the counter getting ready to pay for my groceries that I realized I didn't bring my wallet. My freaking god I can't believe I did that. I was so pissed with myself. I think in all I wasted 2 hrs of my day : (

Now I have no groceries : (

How to remind myself to add an entry ever so often on livejournal. Any ideas? 

I love my girlfriend, my baby, but i find myself wanting friends other than her of my opposite sex. Maybe its because I know I will never sleep with them because I have my girlfriend and never would cheat on her. I've always gotten along better with females than men. So maybe I just want a platonic relationship with a girl with no strings attached.

Been working alot lately. Had to replace windows in the house and get some other needed neccesities. So now my extra money is already spent. Trying to pay off a school so I can go back in Jan. So many things that I want to get payed off but ending up spending it elsewhere. It really is annoying. Anyway I'm going to take a shower and jump in bed. Hope all is well : )

I'm feelin a little better. Im still a little anxious(nervous?) about having the oldest kid back in the house. It seems like the middle child wants to talk shit now and give his mom and me hell since his older bro came home. I was actually thinkn last nite I would love to bust their ass(and if they were my kids I would bust their ass) but I don't think I could keep my job at the state school if I did so. Anyway their mom seems to have them under control for the most part. I think I just need to just relax and calm down and let my gf I am their for backup if she needs me(even to hold the little brats down so she can spank them)

Oh yea btw the middle child broke the paddle his mom uses on him and he has been threatening to go live with his grandparents or walk to michigan which is like 2k miles from here.

My gf's oldest son the one we have had problems with is staying with us tonite. Anyway I counted before he came over and  I had 8 monster energy drinks now I only have 7. I know beyond a shadow of doubt that he took one. I know we gonna have some problems with him if right outside the box he takes one of my drinks without asking. I am really not happy at the moment cause I knew something like this would happen. He comes with us and the first thing he fucking does is still my fucking drink.

Well today was alot better than the last 2 days and I have high hopes for tommorrow. When I got off work today I jumped on WoW, because I was too tired to automatically do house chores or study, and played in my hunter (I pvp with him quite a bit) to get points toward pvp gear. OH MY FREAKIN GOD. EVERY FREAKING BG I JOINED WAS FUCKING FAIL. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL? CAN'T ALLIANCE WIN. So getting my points today is taking longer to get today cause we keep losing. I try to get a certain amount of points a day toward pvp, so I told myself I would get halfway and go read. I'm not doing chores today I can do them on my day off.

  Anyway I'm sorry I don't really have good writing skills.


I'm still a little sick with my allergies. So even though I didn't have a bad day my allergies make it to wear it's a struggle to do even the easiest crap.

God im so tired. Ive had 2 long days at work. Hopefully it will settle down tommorrow. I'm at home atm trying to relax its working little by little.

          My daily affirmation for Aug. 25th

I am home in God. I am at home with speaking the truth of my being. I am surrounded by the all-good of God. I dwell in the house of abundance,joy, and peace, now and always.

Maybe that will help. Lol

I wish my allergies weren't as bad as they were. It seems like I have to struggle even with the easiest things in life. If it wasnt for the allergist giving me hope I would have prolly given up all hope last year. Lifting anything or even pushing anything is a pain in the ass at times. I have no idea how I still work a physically demanding bs job.

I try to read at least one hour a day, but my gf's kids are being annoying or am I just irritable? Who knows? At least I was able to work one hr in the house today. I really can't wait till the kids start back to school. No more late night watching tv. Yeah : )

 I am a big nerd. I love to keep stuff and analyze it. Maybe there is a reason anal is in analyze? No reason to type this but just to be able to. If that makes sense. lol

I changed my user info. Feel free to take a look if you want.

If you haven't posted in more than 3 months I have removed you.

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Livejournal was my 1st ever online social site and is still my fav. in my opinion. The problem is I don't feel like reading for fun anymore. Shit I do that enough because I have to. I also have a job that involves gettin into people's lives. I'm sorry but sometimes (what am I kiddin? all the time) when im off work I don't want to delve into other people lives. I could  care less if they wanna be my friend. I'm just too fucking busy to care what other people have to write about. It is really interesting at times though, but for the most part I just don't even wanna know what my life is like when I don't have to do shit..........

Almost time to go to sleep. Goin to get up early tommorrow. Going to a drummin to celebrate Mother Earth. Happy Earth Week all. Lets try our best to at least do something to help Mother Earth. We all live busy lives but even the smallest of things helps. My fav. thing is to not get a bag from a store if I can carry it myself. Happy Earth Day : )

I need to download Aol messenger I always liked them better than any other messenger.....
Please feel free to leave me a comment..............

Even if ur not on my friend list and just browsing : )

We need a addxxx site where u can add friends for sex and nastiness...............lol..........
 

I'm tired. Going to bed. Anyone know of any good icon communities? Interesting communities? communities that have great pics of women naked? Or any communities that are really fun and have a big fan base? Just let me know, k? Thanx : )

Check out my bio on my user info page. Makes me look like less of an asshole doesn't it? Well at least I hope so ; )

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